Some days you just wonder, “Is it going to get better?”:
When the clouds gather and keep you inside when all you wanted was to walk in the sunshine and feel the warmth on your face.
When your family is a thousand miles away and your internet isn’t connected yet for you to Skype with them.
When the person you love with every inch of your heart is upset with you and hangs up the phone before you can fix it.
When your new house, so beautiful and cozy, suddenly feels lonely and empty.
When work is piling up and you are wondering how you will handle it.
When all the experiences and heartache of the past few months come crowding in and make it hard to breathe.
When you feel like you have prayed every prayer there is and still the pain continues, pushes you to the floor, unrelenting.
When you cry for now reason at all, deep gut aching sobs that won’t stop.
Some days, it is hard to remember that God is in control. It is hard to remember all the many, many times before that these things have happened, these and many worse things, and God in His lovingkindness carried us. Some days all you see is the right now.
But these days are temporary, just as our time here is. God’s love encompasses the whole world, and someday we will finally understand that, all those days, it was enough for us.
Someday, it will get better.
"Let me remember that here I have no continuing city, but only a place of sojourn and a time of testing and of training." John Baille